Here again. Almost half year din update my blog d.
Find no way to express my feeling so try to write how was my feeling.
Haih. This time last year everything was so different. Last year the first day you come find me until now. Like a dream.
Last month you say sry to me you are the one doing wrong thing. Yes, you should say sorry cz you really cheat on me and hurt me.
You say we should maintain uor relationship but you already in a relationship with others and the reason you give me is bcz you want to stop flirting so you start another new relationship. If you want to start a relationship then why you still flirting with others. So unresponsibility.
You just think of your ownself do you ever think of others? Do you think before what if you hurt two girls in the same time? Izint we just a toy for you to entertain you?
Okay fine. That day me alone go so far to find you and I nvr ecpect the girl also there. Before the day you say you'll accompany me and wtf you show me. You just acc the girl from the beginning to the end. Do you think of my feeling? I stand behind and see it. I feel like almost dying. Seriously I won't show others how weak am I, I always smile to face others a straonger for thm maybe. But I almost cry out that time I feel like cry loud. But I keep endure and endure. I feel so suffer to face you all.
I endure until the event finish and back to penang. I almost cry out in car but I keep endure until back to penang.
And the next day you say sry to me you say I'mm still your beloved. You feeling confused duno choose which one or you feel so happy to play others relationship? After that you ask me why jealous we still is bestfriend. And that time I ady can feel that you choose her. After few days my friend encourage me to ask clear. Okay, after that i ask you be honest to me. And I know you so long time this is the first time I saw you so serious. And I get my ans. YA YOU LIKE HER. You keep say sorry, sorry for what? You saw you worry about me, wtf are you talking this to me?! After few days you told me you ady in a relationship with the girl..
You say before we should our relationship and the day when I know both of you together I only can say WE SHOULD NOT MAINTAIN OUR RELATIONSHIP WE SHOULD KEEP DISTANCE TO EACH OTHERS.
You say gt anythg can find you and etc to me, but for me you just a lier. Seriously I don't know how to trust you anymore.
Everythg just like a movie. Got one stupid duno how to ride bicycle beside the road. Many ppl try to help her but she reject and one day duno why she let a boy to help her. And she thought at last both of them will cicyle together after long time she just realise the boy follow the cicycle from behind cicyle together to very front already. Ans she still at the place the day thy meet. How could throw a girl alone thr and you follow others walk away? You knw what the girl hate the most and you did it.
Whn you break your promise, cheat on me, hurt me like nthg else you should everything come to the end. You should know nothing left between both of us. I cannot same like others accept your apologize, I can't forgive also cannot forgt how you treat me. I won't wish both of you but I wish one day you also will get hurt by others like nothing else and I'll stand beside watch it and laugh on you. Maybe the way I do like this look so childish but everytime ppl say just wish thm baa but whn the thg really happen on you, you'll just realise hard to do it but easy to say.
You just a stranger for me right now, whn others ppl say somethg of you I'll just say I don't know him. Lie on others but also lie on me. I hope one day I really don't know even frgt you and do not contact infuture anymore.


After such a long time I'm back to my blogger.
HAIH.
New fiscal year coming soon. Hmm...
I'm coming 1st vice of my club. hmm
It's a high post from member to PR until VP.
But I don't even feel happy. Why?
As a vice, I feel so stress. Maybe others don't understand why am I so stress. Thy will just only answer me '...stress? vice?...' lol

When my seniour tell me I'm coming vice of my club and they say sorry to me because this year should be F4 ppl do president but they din choose me bcz they choose F3 student b pres.
The reaction I gv thm is 'ok ah, why sry?' bcz that time i'm hving my breakfast with my buddy.
After recess back to the class, i think a lot. After that I started Emo. LOLLL
I feel so dissapointed of myself. I feel I'm so useless. Until now sometimes I oso will feel so dissapointed to myself. This is the most big repantet if my FY. maybe?
I started spam a lot of status and tweet, that time i seriously so DOWN man!! ..
My friends is so worry about me, they try to consuel me. I'm not trying to ask my friends help me to b pres.
I don't actually care so much about the post. I jst feel that I cnt a F3 guys hving a high post thn me in my FY.
And start from last year many people ady thought I'm coming pres. And now...I duno how to face them. ish.
I know I'm not the top one, I cannot do well in a lot of thg. I just hope that gv me chance bcz it's my last year dy. But....

So many things happen, I endure a lot, and oso apologize to my seniour bcz of me you guys get hurt.
I join leo start from F2 , I beg my teacher almost half year start from F1 I only can in this club. So that time I tell myself If I can in this club I must do my best until my FY I can be pres. lol.
But F2 that time I'm still a sleeping member, I try to attend event but no event let me to attend. haih.
Afte rthat F3 my IPP ask me attend a lot event, she want me to be BOD incoming FY.
She oso teach me a lot and when she knw I'm not the pres, she oso get shocked and unacceptable. HAIH.
I din miss any event start from last year new year at free school recycle that event.
From no one can't even remember my name, duno who am I until now everyone know me. I almost spent all my time in leo life until now.
From a member, be sub comittee usher of leo talent 2012, started take comittee in region project b programmer in leo day 2012, ass treasurer in leo quiz 2013, and secetary in leo talent 2013 and now be Co-OC in upcoming farewell.
When I'm still a member I don't even know how to organise a event, I duno organise a event need so many comittee, I duno even know prganise a event not that easy, need to meeting and gving full cooperate to all comittee. And hving a good relationship with member and BOD. I duno Leo club gt relationship with others country. I only know Leo club got leo forum.
Time flies. Now I learn a lot of leadership skill and teaching new BOD and member it.
I oso know a lot of best friends in leo! And we got a gang Nyrsaen's, lol. I don't even thk I will have a best friends at KL, Sitiawan, Ipoh and......
Seriously I enjoy every moment in leo event, I like leo.

I'm going to leo forum soon. This is the second time I go leo forum. This year not same like last year, I'm a seniour now I need to take card of my member.
I hving a quite good relationship with member but I duno why I feel I din hv a good relationship with coming pres? Feel so stress.
Enough, I endure 3years dy, just let me take it easy please. You don't know my feeling. You not same like me, I do so hard I need to endure seniour last time, after that endure member till the end hving a good relationship with them. I did a lot, I really feel so strees sometimes. Can you jst don't sho wme your attitude. I endure 3years and a lot. Maybe I really did wrong somethg let you so unhappy? I duno what i do wrong I just feel like recently your attitude really weird. But if you a seniour you oso endure, how can you imagine me endure a lot of seniour and 3years? Just let be take it easy, and help me all the time in my last fiscal year. I only hav half year++ left, let the last few months be my leo life most awesome part ok?..


YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT IT.

I din use parents money, I pay forum fee by myself.
Everytime shopping oso pay by myself!
CAMP, FORUM, BUS FEE, PHONE, SHOPPING, BEVERAGE AND ETC ALL PAY BY MYSELF!
Alright.
Everytime go meeting I oso ask ppl fecth me I will think the transport by myself.
Any event the first transport I thk is see which friend can fetch me. If really nobody can fetch I only ask you guys! BUT, you guys oso say NOOOOO!!
FINE. I JUST DONT WANT TELL YOU GUYS I WALK GO SCHOOL BY MYSELF AND YOU TOT MY FRIEND FETCH ME!
You tot everytime oso gt ppl so kind come fetch me ah?!
If I ask you guys fetch my friend back, you guys think oso no need thn say NO!
ALWAYS NO. FCUK

Alright, I use my own money to buy what I want.
I want I5. And I pay by myself. But now I din hv tat much money.
If sign packet just 1899.
Now I only gt 8++9++ if not mistake.
But I need pass up forum money and buy forum accesories so I din hv tat much money!
And I can sell out  my old phone thn mah enuf money ler lo!
BUT YOU!!! DONT WANT LET ME SOLD MY OLD PHONE OSO DIN PAY FORUM FEE FOR ME!
ALL I MONEY I PAY BY MYSELF ALL TRANSPORT I THINK BY MYSELF!
I JUST HV A SMALL REQUEST WITH YOU WHY YOU OSO CANNOT MAKE IT?!
IZINT I DO DOESNT GOOD ENOUGH OR YOU?
IZINT ALL IS MY ATTITUDE PROBLEM OR YOU?
IZINT MY FAULT OR YOU BOTH?!


1month++ din updated blog dy.
HELLO 2013 PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.

Last month (december 2012) happen a lot of thing..
I still remember that I go fo yi camp after that go Genting with Nyrsaen's.
Xmas party at Coptorn hotel...
And 1of feb 2013 my first time event!!
Time flies.
Now ady reopen school 3week dy and Chinese New Year coming soon!
But I din hv CNY mood. Lol /.\

Alright, today I come to updated my blog I jst wanna say out my feelingsssssss. Ish
I hate 7. Really hate it. But My birthday at July! TT
When a people suddenly that means the person happen somethg.
I feel I'm change. Izint I too hurt?..
**#'If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain.'# I'm learning this. I hope that I really can do it. 'Change my attitude and don't complain.'. hais.

Say back today.
Early wake up dy cz today gt kk. sad.
Teacher mad, scary. X.X
After kk, me with weisan, net, sarah and fang lu go The Garden hving lunch, boss free us 3member card. Hehe.
Thn they all back my hus thn my mum fetch thy all go Kompleks Masyarakat Penyayang for CLD.
I thought my mum still got fetch my brother thn car full dy cannot sit so I ask Amanda come fetch me.
After that I only knw that my mum din fetch my brother and amanda is coming. lol.
Thn I alone at guardhus wait Amanda coming. Wait 1hr TT *Weather hot like hell!!
Hais.#***
2something CLD only start.
I sit between SuYin and Amanda. Hiak hiak.
We go three go which event oso sit tgt. :$
Hear speech almost 1hr. After that CLD orientation half hour. But 15min like that I do finish ler.
Need to wait until March only can know my result. I scared I fail TT 3wish#me#luck*.*

Alright, If I say I din angry I think you oso trust it. But the truth is I really angry you why you don't want to tell me the truth?
Maybe you thought that I'm still like he that's why you din tell me. I understand what you thinking.
And you angry bcz of her say out your thg. Btw she gt say sorry to you. But did you ever thk that I oso will angry or mad bcz of you lie me? Would you feel sorry to me?
If you dislike somethg straight say out don't show me your attitude. It's her fault, she make you angry. NOT ME!
DONT EVEN SHOW ME YOUR F*CKING ATTITUDE. I DID NOT DO WRONG ANYTHING. F*CK
I keep silent I hope you can understand. Don't too over. I still hv a lot of time. Don't judge me, I'll show you what I have.

Ohya, I frgt when and where I go dy. You guys can stop talking her infront of me. I ady say a lot of time! When I'm serious don't take a joke with me!!! I seriously will mad!
If really like this, the project I wont join! I do a lot but I jst a kelefe. Btw, she anythg oso no need to do bcz she Pretty!!!!!! It's really UNFAIR! Did you thk ym feeling?!
Actually I don't want to join the project I jst gv you face.
And I ady say that event that day I wont go. Don't force me.
You all say she Pretty and you guys like her so much thn go find her la! Gt thg to do only come find me?!
You thought me as what?!
I hope that you can understand '公私分明‘. LOL


Hais. Hais.
我尝试来这里写出我的心情..
可是又不知从何说起
心情很复杂 很乱 我也不知道自己想要的是什么。
有时候真的觉得自己很好笑 辅导老师去辅导不了自己 /.\
我已经很久没那么伤心了 真的...
上一次用了好长一段时间才可以从中走出来..
可是这次我却忘了上次是怎么开心过来的 /.\
我尝试吃很多很多巧克力 可是吃了我的心情也没变得更好 ><
我尝试透过唱歌唱出我的心情 可是却好像怎么唱都唱不完..
好烦!
好像找个地方躲起来一段时间 整理好情绪之后再出来 :'((

Stephanie, stop thking somethg impossible happen your life pls.
Don't care what thy told me. U jst ignore, you will live better. Cheer..


Ifeel I'm so trouble and stupid.
I try my best to do everythg good fr my club but I feel I'm fail.
I'm seriously worry everythg about my club..
Nxt year what should I do? Most BOD bcum outgoing..
I' afraid and worry...
And.........
Do you know which post you holding? How come you talking like that!? Not responsibility at all!
Seriously hate your attitude! U tot it's easy to do! But actually a lot of thg need to do jst I din updated you I don't want to trouble you!
Alright, can you show me somethg you hv done fr the event? *I thk NO. Lol

Alright, off now and continue running man. Will updated agn tmrw. :)


Wth, why so many stalker!?
And what a funny reason!!??? LOL
Spam my notification make my fb lag like hell. Grrr!!!
So fcking annoying!! Can you jst go away??! ;@

Recently quite busy. A lot camp TT
Alright, coming sun Beach cleaning!
I'm seriously worry I cant wake up in the morning TT
Andddd Saturday queeny and jane stay at my hus!!
Excited!!! We going to chew jetty at this sat with Nyrsaen them!! Wee!!
After that go see twilight!! Ohgosh!! FINALLY!!
I hv been waiting fr year and few month!!! How excited was it!!?? :OO
Night go Goh Kaki hving dinner!! Weee ^^
#Hope coming will hv a pretty weekend## <33


Going to Ipoh soon! Wee x)


Saturday sister wedding at time square Ming garden.
Congratz sis.!
Since sat wake up early in the morning after that go to BOD meeting at timesquare f2f.
After meeting still hv sometime so I went to pgb to hv a cup of starbuck. xD
Thn only bck home /.\
After that went to 'Coollife' make up.
Quite busy!
A lot of thg need to do. Wait until midnight 3somethg only cn sleep zZzz

Sunday 6somethg wake up ady.
Thn faster done my thg thn went to hotel help my sis. /.\
Couse I do my sis bridesmaid so I keep follow thm go hr go thr. lol
2somethg my aunt fetch me to gurney.
3somethg reach thn go thr help abbie fr registration.
But almost 5o'clock I go to hving lunch v sheng xun at McD.
615 we go to see movie 'Skyfail'.
It's a bit bored fr me. ><

Whn the movie finish we both hndphn no battery. Damn.
We cnt contact our parents cnt go hum :O
We tot gt penang city ppl at registration thr. But whn we go thr. Thy bck ady.
Thn we go fourskin find May Juin, she oso bck dy. Shit.
After that we go walk and look around nearby gt person we knw or not.
Luckily we saw Iris!!!
Thn Iris fetch me bck. Sheng xun at thr waiting 1hr fr his parents to fetch he bck. /.\
Iris is our jiu xing!! lol. /.\

How I wish I can faster get my license as soon as possible!!!

Okay. Today went to Ksassion v jia shin hv a hair cut. *only she.
I keep chit chat at thr v nicole. haha
After go out v jia shin and her sis. Bankrupt dy TT
6o'clock oly go to sarjana. xoxo.

Okay now. I deicide to do a project. Visit old foks home or orphanages? Confused ._.


Photo of yesterday. :D





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Oops. Yesterday wen to Loh Guan Lai visit Pei Yin.
Feel shock whenI know the news that she in to hospital.
Luckily she is fine now. hoo.......

it's okay. Bigbang concert is coming soon.
But I'm not going! TT
Lot of friends is going ##
Enjoy and hv fun thr! :D

Yesterday night supper with janet, wen chyi and her sis. David fetch us to Tong Pak Fu. Tq.
Net is happen somethg haiss..
I cannot do anythg fr her. damn.
Don't always cry pls.
Remind yourself it's okay not to be perfect.
Just smile to face the truth. :D




Almost two months din updated blog dy. 

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Hello there,I'm Stephanie Ong. Nice to meet you guys and welcome to my bloggie! :D

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I'm 15th years old,from Penang,Malaysia. :D

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