Stephanie Bloggie. ヅ

Feel like whole world universe cheat on me.

31.10.13 @ 12:49

Here again. Almost half year din update my blog d.
Find no way to express my feeling so try to write how was my feeling.
Haih. This time last year everything was so different. Last year the first day you come find me until now. Like a dream.
Last month you say sry to me you are the one doing wrong thing. Yes, you should say sorry cz you really cheat on me and hurt me.
You say we should maintain uor relationship but you already in a relationship with others and the reason you give me is bcz you want to stop flirting so you start another new relationship. If you want to start a relationship then why you still flirting with others. So unresponsibility.
You just think of your ownself do you ever think of others? Do you think before what if you hurt two girls in the same time? Izint we just a toy for you to entertain you?
Okay fine. That day me alone go so far to find you and I nvr ecpect the girl also there. Before the day you say you'll accompany me and wtf you show me. You just acc the girl from the beginning to the end. Do you think of my feeling? I stand behind and see it. I feel like almost dying. Seriously I won't show others how weak am I, I always smile to face others a straonger for thm maybe. But I almost cry out that time I feel like cry loud. But I keep endure and endure. I feel so suffer to face you all.
I endure until the event finish and back to penang. I almost cry out in car but I keep endure until back to penang.
And the next day you say sry to me you say I'mm still your beloved. You feeling confused duno choose which one or you feel so happy to play others relationship? After that you ask me why jealous we still is bestfriend. And that time I ady can feel that you choose her. After few days my friend encourage me to ask clear. Okay, after that i ask you be honest to me. And I know you so long time this is the first time I saw you so serious. And I get my ans. YA YOU LIKE HER. You keep say sorry, sorry for what? You saw you worry about me, wtf are you talking this to me?! After few days you told me you ady in a relationship with the girl..
You say before we should our relationship and the day when I know both of you together I only can say WE SHOULD NOT MAINTAIN OUR RELATIONSHIP WE SHOULD KEEP DISTANCE TO EACH OTHERS.
You say gt anythg can find you and etc to me, but for me you just a lier. Seriously I don't know how to trust you anymore.
Everythg just like a movie. Got one stupid duno how to ride bicycle beside the road. Many ppl try to help her but she reject and one day duno why she let a boy to help her. And she thought at last both of them will cicyle together after long time she just realise the boy follow the cicycle from behind cicyle together to very front already. Ans she still at the place the day thy meet. How could throw a girl alone thr and you follow others walk away? You knw what the girl hate the most and you did it.
Whn you break your promise, cheat on me, hurt me like nthg else you should everything come to the end. You should know nothing left between both of us. I cannot same like others accept your apologize, I can't forgive also cannot forgt how you treat me. I won't wish both of you but I wish one day you also will get hurt by others like nothing else and I'll stand beside watch it and laugh on you. Maybe the way I do like this look so childish but everytime ppl say just wish thm baa but whn the thg really happen on you, you'll just realise hard to do it but easy to say.
You just a stranger for me right now, whn others ppl say somethg of you I'll just say I don't know him. Lie on others but also lie on me. I hope one day I really don't know even frgt you and do not contact infuture anymore.